After Cancer Diagnosis, Dota 2 Commentator Returns To The Game Between Chemo Sessions

Jorien "Sheever" van der Heijden is lively when we sit down to chat. A five-time veteran of The International, this event isn't quite the same as the previous ones. In May, she was diagnosed with breast cancer. Sitting on the concourse floor in Key Arena in August, several weeks into the Dota 2 tournament that annually consumes Seattle, you might think it was her first day there.

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"Coming into this event, I am feeling good," van der Heijden starts. "I have a different role than I normally do, so that would make me feel a little bit different, perhaps. But I'm coming into it with good energy and as a bit of a working holiday, if you will. I'm in a really good place right now."

Van der Heijden's career in Dota 2 stretches back to 2012. She was laid off from a job selling PC parts, but van der Heijden had been an admin for Dota 2 tournaments and even dabbled with commentating an amateur tournament, so with some money saved up, she decided to take a stab at making Dota a full-time job.

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Over the course of the last five years, van der Heijden has become one of the faces of Dream League and a prominent member of the Dota 2 community. She's commentated matches at The International, hosted panel and analyst segments, and streams regularly to a solid audience of Dota faithful. Much of that security was upended, however, with the news of her diagnosis.

"Diagnosis came in, kind of felt like, OK," said van der Heijden. "Career, worked incredibly hard for that, and it's a very competitive environment to do the job that I do, so it kind of felt like that's down the drain. That's over. This is it, I'm done, I have to look for a new job after the whole process is done. In my head I was like, I'm out for a year, that's kind of what I was expecting. To be out of the scene for a year. It kind of felt like that's over."

Van der Heijden says she's had to overcome a lot of adversity in her career, not just as a woman in a predominantly male scene, but as a commentator in general. A clip of a missed Ravage as Tidehunter became synonymous with her screenname, and in a crowded Dota 2 landscape, it can be hard to carve out a niche for yourself.

"I mean, any female, any male has to overcome that as well," said van der Heijden. "There's not that many new people coming into the scene and everybody has to find their own space, everybody does it in their own way."

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But, persevering and turning the joke back around on others, van der Heijden has built a name for herself in Dota 2. Cancer was just another hurdle to climb. Acceptance, van der Heijden says, came faster than she thought it would. Grasping the realities and moving on to what came next came soon after the first round of chemotherapy.

"Getting over it, I only started doing that once the first chemo was out of the way," said van der Heijden. "Before that, I kind of lived towards that black day of first chemo. Once the first one was over, I kind of felt like, OK, I can do this. I can overcome this and deal with this too. Then you start preparing for the next one and take it a couple days at a time, and at some point you realise, I can do this better, I can start to plan a couple of weeks at a time."

At some point, it became clear that the stars had aligned: The biggest tournament in Dota 2 happened to fall right between chemo appointments. As the realisation of this opportunity set in, so did a new set of questions. Could she attend? Would she be invited? Would she be well enough to work?

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"I wasn't entirely convinced yet, because obviously I had to ask my doctor if it was even possible," said van der Heijden. "Because aeroplanes, airports, lot of germs. An esports event? Not the most clean event of them all. So there's a lot of hesitation there. There's also this thing called chemo brain, it actually does affect your brain, and I did notice that. Especially after the first chemo, I at some point noticed that I was not as quick-witted as I was before, not as fast with reading things or understanding things."

There was worry and doubt, compounded by the distress of how this might affect her future job prospects. The "germfest" of The International, the long days, endless broadcasts and hype can be draining.

But when van der Heijden set foot on US soil, everything changed. Normally, she says, a trip to the states from her hometown in the Netherlands leaves her jet-lagged and tired. This year, though, she was happy to be in town and heading off to commentate some of this year's group stage matches.

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Originally, van der Heijden tells me, she had not planned on telling anyone about her breast cancer diagnosis. It's a personal matter — "something that's very close to heart, literally and figuratively" — and she was concerned about the community's reaction. Her sister eventually convinced her to open up, to let the fans who had seen her cast at multimillion-dollar events also be there when she's going through hard times. Initially, the reaction was incredulous: An email sent out to van der Heijden's subscribers was thought to be fake, and the mods of the Dota 2 subreddit weren't quite sure what to make of it. After a walk around to clear her mind, van der Heijden went live on Twitch and explained the whole situation.

Since then, the reaction has been incredibly supportive. Others within the Dota 2 community and in the general games industry reached out with advice and well wishes. The Dota 2 subreddit allowed users to add a pink border to their flair, in support of Sheever. At several points before, during, and after our chat, fans would stop by to say hi, snap a selfie, and wish her the best of luck. In many ways, van der Heijden is an inspiration to the community just as much as its embrace has been an inspiration to her.

"Looking back now, I can't even imagine me considering not telling everybody," said van der Heijden. "Because what would have happened? 'Sheever has basically stopped doing events, nobody knows what is happening.' This way, people know that I'm still here, I'm still fighting, it's just a different fight altogether."

In her day-to-day work, van der Heijden has stayed in contact with tournament organisers, several of whom have assured her that she will have a job to return to. Though she's been on a break from hosting and commentary outside of The International, she still streams Dota 2 on Twitch, playing games and interacting with her fans.

At The International 7, van der Heijden only worked the group stage matches, so her main event time was largely open and free of analyst panel stress. She tells me her favourite moment was getting to sit in a suite as just a spectator, for once, for the vs. Team Liquid series, cheering along with the crowd. Dota 2, as van der Heijden describes it, is a constant struggle to improve yourself, a game about learning and growing through every match; an interesting analogue to her own experiences as commentator, host and analyst.

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Her first day back home after The International, the routine will start again. Van der Heijden will head to the hospital and have her blood checked, followed by reviewing an MRI result. Then she will get the green light to start chemo again, and it will be back to treatment.

But sitting on that concourse, seeing the outpouring of support from fans, it's clear that van der Heijden isn't in this fight alone. Matthew Bailey, director of operations for Team Secret, started a rumour on Twitter leading up to The International 7. Several treasure chests — random loot boxes — were released with unique items inside, and each one could be purchased with the signature of a commentator or analyst who would attend TI7, giving them a small portion of the profits. Bailey tweeted that van der Heijden's treasures seemed to have a greater chance of eliciting a rare result. While in jest, others directed fans to seek van der Heijden's signature over their own. She laughingly confirmed to me that there are no greater odds on her treasure over others, but it's one of many gestures that show van der Heijden isn't in this fight alone.

"All the worries that I have about not being able to work in the coming months, or not as much anyway," said van der Heijden. "That support that they have shown makes me not have to worry about that."


    Nice article. I hope it all works out for Sheever, she always seemed like a lovely person. And it's really nice to see a community known for its toxicity being so supportive.

    Last edited 19/08/17 3:50 pm

      Maybe we wouldn't be toxic if you stopped feeding and bought a courier! :p

    As an unfilfilled desk jockey earning money doing something that will never ever inspire me i'm filled with respect for anyone who chases their dreams like this.

    Wishing her a speedy recovery and much success.

    Great article, I wish Sheever the very best, Hope she overcomes this, She sounds like an incredible woman.

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